Second Post From Prior Blog

Dear readers,

I hope this post finds you and yours well 💕 and I’d like to thank those who showered me with support as I announced I’d be blogging it is truly appreciated and noted !📋😭💕As I mentioned in my last post my aim is to do weekly posts but I tend to get stuck inside my head as I am “clinically depressed” which stems from some of my life experiences that I have repressed and constantly questioned throughout my whole existence. We all have different interpretations of what’s going on at the moment regardless if the message seems clear as it is received in some way or form but the whole moment in itself is absorbed entirely different based on our perception of our reality, and I want to share with you all mine...if needed only for the purpose of examples any names will be changed to protect the other person involved because again whatever I share with you all is my truth and how I interpreted it and if being, how it has impacted my reality.

Becoming a mother has caused many things to resurface along with self-awareness on my parenting/whole-self, which left me wanting to be better rather than masking things that can’t be fixed/redone or my famous “what if?!” scenarios the way I have been in which I’ve been bluntly told well, what if not. I’ve also been told the first two steps are acknowledging there is a problem and wanting to do something about it (easier said than done but POSSIBLE). Therefore, what I’ve been working on and will continue to is being acceptant of what life has thrown my way/or what it will throw my way because that is all out of my control, BUT what I can control is how I react. Whatever I’ve done in the past, I’ve done to survive the black hole that was delicately daunting me from being the mother I want to be as it was becoming more apparent each and every day that there is more to me than I initially thought.

What I dwell upon is how my toddler drew me on the whiteboard one day and said, “that’s mommy, she’s sad.”...that’s when it hit like a smack across the face that it is only YOU who holds power to be the person you want to be, let yourself feel the emotions that arise given in any situations and/or when taking a toll down memory lane because it is human to FEEL these emotions/things despite what our social constructs have implicated such as crying is a form of weakness.

However, they are right about one thing when they say the only way to get through it is to go through it while not holding any judgment towards what was because, again, what is done is done. Think of how you can better yourself from what you once were, start from there, and try your hardest every damn day!! baby steps, people, as it is an extensive process to unlearn everything you have it will not be an overnight success in the pursuit of happiness and self-fulfillment; it is a forever work in progress because you and I, my reader-friend are constantly evolving...let it be to something greater💕

Any questions, comments, concerns LMK

Meet ya here next week for another read 🙂💕 enjoy your weekend tell yo frans and yo frans frans. 

Xoxo-Jenn